I never intended on writing a book. When I began to journal the details of our first miscarriage, I never intended on sharing it. When I finished writing that first night, something prompted me to save it as “Chapter 1.” After writing five chapters, I couldn’t bring myself to continue writing. Recounting the experience was too painful. Months later, a friend shared a writing competition with me and encouraged me to enter. The deadline was in two weeks. With the support of my husband, I locked myself in our home office for two weeks and wrote our story. Named as a finalist in the 2015 Women’s Journey of Faith writing competition, I realized this story was meant to be shared.
The memoir holds the most tender moments of a broken time for my family. Pregnancy loss can be very isolating. This story is to let parents (mothers in particular) know that they are not alone in this grief journey.
Chasing Light speaks to the challenges of expanding a family, the pain of loss, and the test of being a mother and a wife in the face of grief. With twenty-five percent of known pregnancies ending in miscarriage, this story discusses normalizing grief by creating open and honest conversations about loss.
Drawing attention to some unknown aspects of what happens during a miscarriage, this memoir shares personal accounts of how community, support, and hope can be found during a time that can be so isolating. The author shares truthfully about depression and pregnancy after loss and includes heart-wrenching conversations with her three-year-old who tries to understand her parents’ grief.
This is a battle of the mind, body, and spirit to find wholeness through trials and is the continuous journey to seek recovery and healing after pregnancy loss.