Sleep Deprived Conversations

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If you've ever lived with a newborn, or cared for one around the clock, you would understand how needy he or she can be. You can imagine how this month has been at our house with a one month old, a four-year-old and a dog who is rather attention deprived. We're slowly learning our baby's cues. The most difficult thing so far is that she doesn't like being put down. She'll sleep happily when held, but when I put her down, her eyes pop open and I receive a death glare. As we transition, we have had some interesting conversations...

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The Road to Forty Weeks – Our Birth Story

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It's been a long time coming. I feel like I've been pregnant for the past two years. In this journey of expanding our family, we've gained two angels and had quite the difficult pregnancy, but I can now say that our family is complete. Labour Due to my history with marginal placenta previa, I was instructed to go to the hospital anytime I had any sort of bleeding during pregnancy. Thankfully this only happened once at 27 weeks and baby was happy and healthy. At 39 weeks and 1 day, it happened again at 7:00am. I called my doctor and...

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What My Daughter Asked Me For

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Cover photo by Whimsy and Wonder Photography. We've got a pretty solid bedtime routine at our house for our little love who requires a lot of nighttime parenting. My husband usually prepares a small bedtime snack, gets our daughter changed, washed up and passes her off to me. Story time will be any combination of my husband, myself or the dog reading with our four year old. When it's time for lights out, I'm the one to sit with her until she's asleep. She happily crawls into bed, then thinks of at least 10 ways to stall actually going to sleep. 4yo:...

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On The Day I Became Mommy

on the day i became mommy

Four years ago I became Mommy because of you. Nine months prior to that a little positive sign changed my life. You were only the size of sesame seed and you captured my heart forever. I'd do anything for you. On the day I became Mommy I was nervous. Daddy took me to the hospital for a routine non-stress test. We were usually in and out within 30 minutes, but it was over an hour this day and I was still lying there with monitors strapped to my belly listening to your heartbeat. The OB came in to say that...

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A Silent Christmas

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It's common this time of year to over schedule ourselves between work events, parties with friends, and family gatherings. I absolutely love Christmas, learning about different traditions, starting new traditions as a family, the yummy food, all while celebrating our Saviour's birth. Before opening her advent gift each day, I read the story of Jesus' birth to my daughter. Since she's heard the story for one week now, I've started to ask her questions: Me: Where was Jesus born? 3yo: In a manger with the animals. (She got me there, I was going for Bethleham.) Me: What gifts did the wise...

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The Road to Forty Weeks – Week 30

We've made it to week 30 in this pregnancy. I can't believe we're counting down weeks now. One of the week to week pregnancy websites told me I should pack my hospital bag this week. We're close, but we're not that close, or are we? I still remain in the high risk category. From internal hemorrhaging, to low laying placenta and beyond, baby and I continue to be under close watch of my GP and OB. Two weeks ago I had to spend a night at the hospital due to some bleeding. After two miscarriages, the sight of blood obviously sent...

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Happy Birthday, My Dear Baby in Heaven

I think that somehow with time it will get easier, this void, this pain in my chest, this absence on earth. Somehow I fool myself into believing that I will be OK, that these dates on the calendar will be manageable and that I will be functional. However, when I find myself alone and safe to feel what it is I need to feel, there is no fooling myself. It hurts, it aches, it wrenches. I miss the baby I will never hold, especially on this day, her birthday. I didn't have much capacity to write, but the following lines came...

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I Let My Child Cry

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In the past two weeks, our three year old has been displaying some new behaviour. When she asks for something, she wants it "now" and there seems to be no way to negotiate around it. If her immediate want isn't met, the whining and tears begin. Some of the wants have not even been possible, "I want to make jello now." It would be nice if we actually had any jello in the house, but we didn't. Her world crumbled. Today she woke up from her nap and requested popcorn and a movie. My husband and I agreed we could do this after...

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5 Ways to Navigate Through the Loss of Miscarriage

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Thirteen months ago, I experienced my first miscarriage and it has been a whirlwind of a journey since then. There was nothing that could've prepared me for the shock and heartache I lived through, that I continue to live through. Next month will mark the due date of my second miscarriage. I cannot even look at a calendar in the same way. It is now filled with dates that are forever imprinted on my heart, dates we found out we were expecting, dates of our losses and due dates, which I now call my babies birthdays. The first two weeks after our...

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Giving Thanks for Tears and Tantrums

It's Thanksgiving here in Canada and though I've been feeling physically awful since June, I am still thankful for many things, especially my three year old daughter. With the medication I was on over the summer, it was difficult to see the good in each day, but my thoughts aren't as clouded now and I'm grateful for that. Since the cloud has started to lift, I've been able to talk more on most days (I've really missed talking). Though I still don't have much energy for small talk or catching up with friends, I'm thankful that I can communicate with...

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