Thank You for Year Three

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Dear Friends, Three years have passed since we have started this journey of sharing stories together. It has been quite the rollercoaster compared to year one and year two. Thanks for sticking around and sharing your stories alongside mine. This past year I have shared about my journey through postpartum depression, some stories about parenting, and about my diagnosis of Ankylosing Spondylitis. When I started this blog three years ago, my hope was it would be a place to share invitations to play that I did at home with my daughter. It has turned out to be quite the opposite....

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Chasing Light for the Invisible Mom

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It's May and there is a highlighted day on the calendar this month that may bring along many emotions, especially for those invisible moms. Mother's Day is a short ten days away and for many this is a difficult day to navigate. How can we honour those mothers who do not have a child in their arms, the mother who holds her child only with her heart, the mother who struggles to answer "how many children do you have?" It's easy to celebrate when we have visible children. The world accepts the visible, but what about the invisible? What about those...

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Happy Birthday, My Dear Rainbow Baby

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Dearest Rainbow Baby, I cannot believe a year has passed since you have joined our family. Memories of carrying you are still fresh. When I close my eyes, I can still feel your kicks against my ribs, and your punches against my abdomen upon hearing your sister's voice. My dear Rainbow Baby, I have to admit it was a terrifying journey bringing you into this world. For thirty nine weeks while you were in my womb, I had a difficult time connecting with you. There was no doubt of my love for you, but I was so afraid of loving you...

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Five Parenting Lessons From My Five-Year-Old

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It is true that the years pass quickly. Suddenly, I am the mother of an outspoken, creative, strong-willed little human being. Five years ago, little Boo made me Mommy. It has been quite the journey getting here. The journey has included a lot more grief than I ever could've imagined, but here we are, navigating the path together, and finding our way through this journey as a family. As a parent, I have always thought about the many lessons that I want to pass on to my daughter. All the disappointments I have faced, I want to spare her from. The tears...

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Teether Here, Teether There, Teethers Everywhere

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For months and months we have been waiting for our Little Bean to pop out her teeth. Our older daughter popped two teeth out at six months. Our youngest sprouted her whites just this week, however, she has been very oral for many months! Everything, and I mean, EVERYTHING goes into her mouth. Things that our little one has tasted that her big sister never got to try: - Paint - Earplugs - Socks - The dog cage - Restaurant highchairs - Crayons - Sharpies - Dog food - Leaves - Lego - Toilet paper rolls - And today, she tasted...

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What is Postpartum Depression Like?

I've had this post sitting in my drafts since May. It has been on my mind for a long time, but one that I've been afraid to touch. I was expecting to come back to a few paragraphs, but this post was completely empty. The only thing I had for this post was the title. There is still a stigma around postpartum depression and often leaves me fearful of being misunderstood. I really didn't understand depression prior to living it. Postpartum depression and anxiety (PPD/PPA) is difficult for me to share about because I do still feel judgement. I work with families,...

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Chasing Light Book Launch

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It's hard to believe that one week has already flown by since the book launch. I'm still trying to recover! It's hard to slow down the pace and replenish in this high season of motherhood when I'm constantly needed by my little people. I finally got to look at the guest list today to see who had registered and who was able to make it to the event. I was pleasantly surprised by the support I received. From family, to friends, to support group facilitators, and health care providers, the room was filled with the village of people that kept...

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I Choose Breastfeeding, and I Choose Me

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There have been pictures of mamas breastfeeding their babies popping up on all my social media feeds in celebration of world breastfeeding week (August 1-7). Breastfeeding is a personal choice, and many health professionals are very pro breastfeeding. I'm sure you've heard the saying "breast is best." With my first daughter, I really believed that "breast is best" and therefore thought that formula was poison. What kind of mother would I be if I wanted a break and decided to give her formula? If I was physically capable, how dare I not be available to feed her? If I had to be...

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Sleep Deprived Conversations part 2

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I first wrote about our sleep deprived experiences when Cray K was one month old. Well, the sleep deprivation didn't really get any better. Did you know babies have a four month sleep regression? Oh yes they do, and our kiddo hit her regression two days before turning four months old. There were nights I was sleeping in 30 to 60 minute intervals. My level of functionality is still minimal and conversations with my husband can leave us both guessing as to what the other is trying to say. Here's a look at our conversations and actions from our four month sleep...

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How I Talk To My Preschooler About Death

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In my daughter's four years on this earth, I'd say she has experienced more death around her than a typical four-year-old. With the loss of two of her siblings, my husband and I agreed that we would always try to help her understand death by answering any questions she may have. Death is an abstract concept for a preschooler. Someone was here, and now they're not. What happened to them? Where are they now? Why do we say goodbye? How do we say goodbye? As a family, we have been navigating grief these past two years and often discuss the babies...

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